Events

Blogging always seems to fall by the wayside when the main stuff going on in one's life is stuff that one can't talk about. In my case there are at least three potentially life changing things that I havent been able to talk about recently. Even now I  probably shouldnt talk openly about two of them.

Event number 1 was this: Chris and I broke up. I wont go into it much, but it was mutual (at least at the time), amicable (similarly), and the right thing for both of us. Things hadn't been right for a while, and it needed to happen.

Event number 2 was revealed to me two days after Event number 1, and floored me completely. Nothing had prepared me for this Event. The fallout is still very much ongoing and I have no idea how it will turn out. Needing to talk to someone about Event number 2 probably ultimately catalysed Event number 3.

The day after Event number 2 I received a job offer. From the interview I had had just before Event number 1. "Hurrah!" I hear you say.... well. I am in a bit of a quandry about it for various reasons, but its one of the few things in my life I can actually talk about, which I suppose is in its favour. The money is good, it is in a nice part of the country, and I could potentially find it interesting and be good at it. The downsides are; firstly, it's not London, which is where a lot of people I'd like to be near are based; secondly, It wouldn't aid me in getting into the career I'd really ultimately like to end up in; and thirdly, I'd be selling my soul somewhat. I guess it's a choice many people have to make.

Event number 3 occurred some time after Event number 2, and as mentioned was probably catalysed by this Event. I use catalysed deliberately. Event number 3 was probably going to happen eventually anyway, and Event number 2 is broadly unaffected by its effects on Event number 3. Nobody involved in it expected Event number 3 to occur as quickly as it did, least of all me. And while Event number 3 is positive, and exciting, it's also scary and likely to upset some people. I feel bad that it happened like this, but I dont feel bad that it happened.

In between all these Events, I have also had two other interviews. As always, its near enough impossible to tell how they went, but I can relate my thoughts. The first company was very interesting. The work they do is right up my street, and I think I could do it. Theres plenty of scope for learning more, getting more responsibility and generally getting job satisfaction. It's in a nice part of London, and the office atmosphere is relaxed and light and airy. I would really like this job. Sods law says this means I wont get it.

The second company also has potential. The work is something I'm interested in (though not to the same extent as the first place), I'd learn a lot, and be fairly challenged. The people seemed nice, and it was in another nice part of London. My main reservations are these; the office - its a cramped room in an old office block. I could cope with this, but it doesnt count in its favour. Secondly the work is likely to be a little frustrating from time to time, given that I will often be fighting for clients to have to do the bare minimum rather than the best job possible. Still, if I got offered this job, and not the first one, I would almost certainly take it.

I have another interview tomorrow. I'll let you know what I think of that after it's happened.